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April 02, 2008
coming together and going nowhere
my first chapter isn't my first chapter. it's actually my introduction to the diss so i still have the first chapter to write. so, i've been working on that and have a deadline that quickly approaches...the day before my bday, in fact.
and at times, i don't know if i'm coming or going. i get into a groove and think i'm doing something. then, i'll read over a revised section and be like "wtf?" but, the writing is coming, thank goodness.
i bought two bunches of carnations that other day: one white, the other yellow. and they're opening up. i sit on my couch and stare at them...a lot. i've never really paid that much attention to carnations before. i mean, there's the carnation/rose lady who makes her rounds thru the club, but i never really paid attention to her collection of flowers and sometimes little red teddy bears probably because no one has every bought me a flower in the club. the vases are sitting on the top row of my dvd collection. they are just so beautiful and so simple--it's amazing to me, and the white and yellow carnations are bringing me much joy these days. i'm glad that i bought them.
one time, someone very dear to me bought me a beautiful bouquet of flowers. instead of truly appreciating their beauty, i complained about my stupid allergies. i wish that i had been more thankful and had spent more time absorbing their beauty. and i wish that i had been more appreciative of her...for the flowers and everything else.
my fav flowers: gerber daisies.
but white and yellow carnations are close behind.
Posted by emnorris at April 2, 2008 01:05 AM