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April 06, 2008
at the same time
i was listening to my ipod as i was burning calories on the elliptical (sp?) the other day. i just recently gave the itunes store a nice piece of change because i wanted to create a new workout playlist. ten songs turned into 20, then 25 and so on and so on. my recent purchases include some of the classics:
big pimpin
around the way girl
daddy's little girl
flavor of the month
summertime
move bitch
great songs, all, representing different moments, different places, and different people who have come in and out of my life. some still in, some out...
as i was pumping my legs and arms to the beat, i looked up at the television that is always on cnn. i was moving, feeling really good, thinking, "look at you go." then i noticed that there was a woman on the tv screen, crying. there had been a tornado in arkansas. i'm not sure if she had lost a loved one or whether or not her house had been destroyed--i wasn't readng the closed captions. instead, i was focused on her face, her pain, the way that the person standing next to her was trying to comfort her with an arm on the shoulder. tears weren't flowing, but she was crying nonetheless. it was an interesting moment because there i was, listening to snoop promising a sexual eruption, thinking about how happy i'll be when my legs start to tone up, and this woman from arkansas was crying on national television because she had lost something/someone/everything in the storm.
there's always that tension, i guess. the moment of release/liberation becomes the moment of ________________________. (fill in the blank.)
i felt something the other day in the gym. at the same time that i was feeling happy, i was so sad for this woman and the rest of her community.
these past few days have been a trip...while i would like to blame the dissertation (another deadline approaches), something else is brewing. i'm sure of it.
it's 1:46am, and i'm blogging about this.
Posted by emnorris at April 6, 2008 01:04 AM