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March 14, 2008
she sits at her desk, shaking her head and wondering...
about it all. i'm so sad about eve carson. a random act of violence...no sense, no justification, no reason. i feel for her family and friends, the two young men, their families and friends, the unc community. all of us, everywhere.
i can feel the sadness in the center of me. and the fear. i'm afraid because of the random-ness. and sometimes, i feel like an overload is right around the corner.
i know that i've been particularly affected because i bought everyone in my family st. patrick's day cards. we don't celebrate st. paddy's day. never had. but i just wanted to let them know how much i love them all and that i was thinking about them. of course, i'm mailing the cards late, but it wouldn't be me if the cards arrived on time. i just love them so much and miss them a lot and wish that we were closer.
ungraded papers wait for me. and i wait for the inspiration to hit me, to make me want to grade them. i could easily sit here all nite and not grade paper the first. spring break 08 has come and gone, and i did a lot less than i planned or wanted or needed. i did have some fun this break. the break just wasn't long enough.
i didn't work any on the second chapter. i think that i'm struggling with how to start, but that was the case for the first chapter. i worked thru it, though, and submitted a draft of the first chapter, so i'm sure it'll come. wow. a draft of one chapter of my dissertation. i like it, i like it.
$150
burn her memory
and eat the ashes
ground them into her hands
to be left in the
folds of skin
that trace her life’s memory
she does not believe in past life
Posted by emnorris at March 14, 2008 10:35 PM