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February 17, 2005
sick and tired of being sick and tired
sorry for the long absence...been sick in my body. actually, been sick in my head (and not in that way...although sometimes it's like a jungle sometimes it makes me wonder how i keep from going under). i've been dealing with this sinus thing that just won't go away. and every year, around this time, i have to deal with this drama. lots of sudafed and kleenex and orange juice.
can't breathe, can't sleep, and can't blog. or won't blog. or don't wanna blog.
anyway...i'm back...
i had a real heart-to-heart conversation with a dear colleague of mine. you know, one of those "get-your-stuff-together" conversations that we all need from time to time. and we discussed my blogging, or lack thereof. so, i'm tryin to re-imagine this blog-space as a forum...a place where i can be me and not trip about what other folks may be thinkin or feelin or readin. and i guess i'm dealing with my anxieties bout soundin standard. and perhaps my anxiety is directly related to the fact that the motivating reason for my blog is that it is a course requirement. and so i'm feelin a little stifled, confined, and assessed. and silenced. how can i explain this? it's kinda like being on the dancefloor and gettin your groove on. you know, you're in your own space, makin your own rhyme and rhythm. then, you glance at the person next to...also in her own groove but one different from yours. and for a moment, an instance, your rhyme and rhythm is thrown off. your finger snap is off beat, your groove thing swings to the left when it should be swingin to the right. what to do? what to do? try not to look to the left or right...continue to dance thru it...suggestions?
Posted by emnorris at February 17, 2005 06:26 PM