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January 31, 2005
i see you...
one morning last summer, i think it was a tuesday, i woke up and couldn't see out of my left eye. actually, my peripheral vision was fine: i couldn't see anything directly in front of me. instead, a black dot, outlined in red, hovered in my line of vision. went to the eye doctor and was informed that there was some sort of leakage in my retina. basically, a puddle of fluid had collected in my eye.
there were no warning signs, no indicators...nothing. according to the doc, there are some folks who are more likely to develop the eye-leakage thing--like type "a" personalities who work in high-stress occupations--but in general, there's no way to know to whom and when this will happen. okay, so grad school could be considered a high-stress occupation, but i don't think that i have a type "a" personality. i guess you'd have to ask the people in my life that question to get a more accurate response.
in worst-case scenarios, laser has to be used to "dry up" the puddle. thankfully, that wasn't my scenario. my vision in that eye isn't 100 percent. it's like i'm always looking thru water. and sometimes, i can see my left eye trying to focus. i can talk/blog/type/write about it now, but last summer, that tuesday afternoon, after taking eye test after eye test, when the doctor told me that while i will regain my vision but probably won't ever see out of that eye like before, i was devastated.
lesson: i stopped saying, "that won't happen to me."
Posted by emnorris at January 31, 2005 05:48 PM